week sixtyseven: streetlights

streetlights

i could crash this car
on this empty road
in the film grain rain
of the streetlight glow

holy water
runaway
leave your body
levitate
distant thunder
driving rain
turn to nothing
hydroplane

i get to her house and this is what i remember

roll me over
revelator
dolly parton flea market record player
the wet clothes
across the bed
white drape silhouettes
broken window
smoke and ash
creatures calling up from the rivergrass
i know i’ve failed and i know i’ve tried
raining in the streetlights
raining in the streetlights
raining in the streetlights

way down in her belly
she carries the story she’s telling
she left home when she was seventeen

she dyed her hair in a cvs sink
cocaine blonde with streaks of bubblegum pink
she caught the father lying with a stranger in bed
eyes wide open covered in sweat

traffic stop
changing lanes
flood the wreckage
ticker tape
jaws of life
flashing red
eighteen wheeler
seven dead

when i got to her house she came out and sat in the car
and i remember feeling like the car was a time machine
and all i had to do was say the right thing
and we’d go back

don’t you know why people sing
  
revelations
sunday night
grandma’s porch covered in candlelight
the autumn birds
the heron call
river fog aerosol
love’s the doctrine
love relentless
carcinoma all of the shit she left us
i know i’ve failed and i know i’ve tried
i know you want it so bad so do i
’97
halloween
everybody dancing to billie jean
i looked at my mom i looked at my dad
superman with the tight pants can’t dance
dying laughing
staggering
featherlight starbright everything
i know i’ve failed and i know i’ve tried
raining in the streetlights
raining in the streetlights
raining in the streetlights